My best friend is in a really bad place in her life right now and it makes me feel so bad. This whole fucking month was SO bad. I can’t remember a day I was happy the whole time. It’s so depressing. It really is.

I just want this nightmare to end. It feels like an absolute nightmare to have such horrible things happen to me and then have horrible things happen to people I love so much.

And to have to take up the conversation about my problems. I hate it so much and I can’t help it. I feel like such utter shit.

When they talk to me about their problems it makes me feel better. It’s like I’m repaying them for being there for me. but enough is enough.

I have to keep it to myself. It’s tiring me and everyone around me even if they don’t say it because it’s the same shit that I can’t get over.